Vicious Cycle

Wake up.
Right away I know it's too early.
Gotta close my eyes or I’ll be awake for good.
Check my phone.
Been waking up at 01:30 every night since I got here.
I don't know why.
Been putting my phone on 'do not disturb’ lately.
Nights like tonight aren't supposed to happen.
Red bubble, numbers on the rise.
I hate it when the red bubble's there.
where are you?
what are you doing?

But it's always them.
And it's never for me.
Three time zones didn't feel this far on paper.
Got two homes with three thousand miles in between.
My real home feels like the wrong one.
Check my phone.
Hit the lock and I'm gone again.
Resetting my mind.
Tomorrow night it’ll be back again.
Same time, same place.